Monday, 20 August 2007
Last nite as I sat down at my void deck garden alone staring blankly at the dull blue sky, nothing going thru my mind, unknowingly smoking more than half pack! wat was I thinking! Nothing! I jus dun feel like going staying at home nor do I wan to go out cause my back’s aching like hell
(but thanks to PQ old tiger medicated plaster it’s getting better.. thanks gal ~)
The irony thing was, I had not smoke since last monday…. frustrated wif everything I guess, work, people etc ..arg….been very moody and emotional… hmm may b because of auntie visit bah feeling very weak and giddy nearly like wanna black out in office or may b because I did not have my fix of cigs.. haven been sleeping well too.. either this or I can’t get to sleep think I gotten the insomnia bug from LR, else I would cry without reason everynite .. I began to think I’m being possessed !!! ...any way i can’t resist n bought a pack to puff it out on Thursday
OMG now within 2 days n half I have smoke 2 packs dam it … where has my will power to quit gone to? I jus gave up so easily…I hate it .. may b because of e reason I decided to quit in the first place bah .. I gave up on tat person too …
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One day you'll be the one crying..# ;
