Super super craving for little cute round things with a sexy hole in between them haha .. being craving for many stuffs this week .... like a glutton.. competing with preggie grace to see who makan more during teabreaks ... haha .. jus look @ them so cute so sexy ... so yummy .. lor :P

saliva dripping le mah ?

 - One day you'll be the one crying..# ;

My Emo level seems like a roller..my future seems bleak , road ahead seems far to walk on .. but life still continue.. who doesn't have their own troubles .. some like to jus keep it inside them while others like to share .. i guess i'm the former.. sometimes building a wall around me wanted to be protected...sometimes an attention seeker while sometimes jus wanna be alone to straighten out my thoughts...



Sometime ago an acquaintance told me tis " u know u need not always act like a clown to make ppl happy, to crack silly jokes, i see tat although u may look joval on the outside but thru that pair of small eyes i can see tat internally yr filled with emotions running wild, i can see yr sorrow gal , i can see that yr hurting inside"



Erm .. tis shock me, making me dumbfound,too shock for words.. as usual i jus brush it off with my silly retorts.. he continues wif "jus be yourself allow people to get to know u better and accept who u r..." i'm totally surprise tat for a person who have known me like a few hours can see thru me ?? Duh ..



Wat does he knows?? ..hmm but may b he is rite... i myself also dun know who i am or wat i wan in life etc .. jus living it as the days goes by ...



1 cannot satisfied everyone and living up to everyone expectations of him or her.. jus be yourself be true to yourself.... be trueful to your feelings ...i guess tat's more important ba ....

 - One day you'll be the one crying..# ;

Came across this lyrics while searching for an old song...dun know wat made me stop and read thru it, although i nv heard this song before but i kinda like the lyrics.. this song kindly state wats happening ard me now ba .. *smiles*

歌名称:秘密

歌手:江美琪
词曲:作词:张震岳

作曲:张震岳

总在闭上双眼之后才能看见你

这是一个心中秘密偷偷在爱你

你却不知道有人在想你

总在黎明来临之前我还是清醒

什么时候我才可以进入你的心

好想对你说我正在想你

也许在你的心中早就已经有人进去

或许你不曾接受真正的爱真诚的情

遗忘吧过去的事不要再怀疑

我彷佛可以听见你的心跳你的声音

不要只有在梦中才能看你才能靠近

我可以慢慢的等直到你离去

 - One day you'll be the one crying..# ;

Last nite as I sat down at my void deck garden alone staring blankly at the dull blue sky, nothing going thru my mind, unknowingly smoking more than half pack! wat was I thinking! Nothing! I jus dun feel like going staying at home nor do I wan to go out cause my back’s aching like hell
(but thanks to PQ old tiger medicated plaster it’s getting better.. thanks gal ~)

The irony thing was, I had not smoke since last monday…. frustrated wif everything I guess, work, people etc ..arg….been very moody and emotional… hmm may b because of auntie visit bah feeling very weak and giddy nearly like wanna black out in office or may b because I did not have my fix of cigs.. haven been sleeping well too.. either this or I can’t get to sleep think I gotten the insomnia bug from LR, else I would cry without reason everynite .. I began to think I’m being possessed !!! ...any way i can’t resist n bought a pack to puff it out on Thursday
OMG now within 2 days n half I have smoke 2 packs dam it … where has my will power to quit gone to? I jus gave up so easily…I hate it .. may b because of e reason I decided to quit in the first place bah .. I gave up on tat person too …

 - One day you'll be the one crying..# ;

Have you ever after so many years n met a person who makes yr heart goes pit – a –pat
like it seems its going to drop out any time, makes u dumbfound, u going googoo n gaga.. make your actions gone completely irrational like a school gal who jus had her first crush.. I had been to dates but nv once will I tot someone will jus bring back this special feeling again after 5 years… this caught me totally off guard making me irrational again ..acting like a school gal dun know how to react acting like a fool ard him … arg .. I hate this.. outing with him is fun n silly , he would make silly comments or crack crappy jokes.. always grumbling about how food sucks etc haha …..this guy who also likes to blow hot n blow cold , twirling me ard on his fingers.. making me bonkers.. guess he decided to blow cold since last Sunday ba …turning on his ignore mode.. no sms , and no more chats on msn …..if games is wat he wants to play .. I’m not into it ..

But that’s not the pt ,I do not wish that this guy to put strains to friendship… I hope others do not think tat because of a guy I’m angry etc n tat I will forsake any friendship.. he is jus another guy passing thru my life .. although not any normal guy lah .. haha …
He wont be there for me to share my sorrows n pain nor happiness.. but I know my friends will and that’s y I treasure and appreciate all of you .. I meant it …

Nv once did it cross my mind tat any of my frens will go for him .. tis I swear erm.. because he is too “ bo “ lor but I like : P .. haha although I do hate it when he is flirting intentionally or harmlessly with others …. Well but who am I to bother.. I tried to brush it off.. but I guess some emotions does show n the jealous freak has been leash out .. wat if the role have been reverse ? wat would you have done ? would anyone stay as level head ? had anyone ever thought wat or how I felt ..fun it may seem to you but pain is all I feel…

 - One day you'll be the one crying..# ;

17th August 2007
Time: 9.00 pm
Venue: Largest floating platform

Need i say more, the whole week have been sucky...been very quiet, dun feel like talking, jus wanna be left alone .. not till thursday when Lirong mention tat her fren, Fishy has 1 extra tix and she knows i will be dam excited about it fireworks as i keep on mentioning about it the previous week ..so i tag along together with Fishy young cousin

my first time getting so close to firework, it seems like u can almost reach it .. when the show starts.. it was also the same time my mouth started to open wide going oohhh... n ahhh... haha feeling like a small kiddo ... the show ended in 15 mins .. so fast ...

the worst part has yet to come.. getting out of the place man .. its jam everywhere i wanna faint liao ... finally reach home only about 11 plus ...

Tix tix ~

Look at my pale but excited face

Ohh~

Ahh~

Great effect with LR phone

 - One day you'll be the one crying..# ;

Yoz yoz ~ everybody .. yeah yeah i know OMG it's been more then a month that i have been updating my blog .. let you guys decide ba was it i'm jus plain lazy or i'm jus a boring gal who has nuthing much to update ... but well this entry shows that i'm back .. n will try to post as much as possible ~ yeah yeah ~

 - One day you'll be the one crying..# ;